Survived...Strong...
Sitting at work is sometimes difficult when you are struggling. It is no secret that I have lost nearly 40 pounds, 30 of which have been since mid-December. It is no secret that I have to continually battle the anorexic demons of my past that still try to tempt me to go back to that way of losing. I am no longer ashamed of what I did back then...what I did was what I knew at the time to control what little bit of life I had control over in a time when someone else had power over me. I am no longer scared of how it takes time to lose weight the "right" way because I'm proving to myself that it is completely and entirely possible. However, there are still days where I struggle. Over the past week, I have gained 2 pounds back. I wouldn't mind if I knew that was in muscle mass. But it is affecting me right now. Old habits have returned and are wreaking havoc on my psyche. In fact, I didn't sleep last night after 2:45. ...