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It is what it is...

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"It is what it is..." That was all I could say as tears threatened to break from my eyes.  It was in response to her "We have Bradley and that's good enough for us, but I am sorry you have to deal with this."  She didn't seem so compassionate in that moment as I sat in the living room across from her.  She didn't seem so sympathetic to my pain or understanding of my disease.  I wanted to say more.  I wanted to tell her that it wasn't okay to tell me that they don't need another grandchild.  Yet, I couldn't.  Honestly, my one statement and excusing myself from the room should have been enough.  Whether or not she knew it, those words I spoke, said everything I think multiple times over.  They spoke my feelings and what I was experiencing.  My heartache? My struggle?  The constant reminders of what I want but can't seem to have yet?   It is what it is... It is heartbreaking...dream shattering...life altering. It is ...